I Hope You'll Join Me

About Me

I am a twenty-something woman. I grew up in a small town to two devout parents. Wanting adventure, I headed off to a major city for college. In five years, I earned two Bachelor’s degrees and a Master’s. I love reading, writing, and traveling.

By any metric, I am a product of my times. Until recently, my education and career were the most important things in my life. I do not long for children or domesticity, nor do I have any immediate plans to return to small town life. I am well-read, well-travelled, and well-educated. I am happily a modern woman, but something is missing.

What Changed

When I was in college, I noticed how far I was straying from my religious upbringing. I didn’t want to, but then again, I didn’t see examples of women like me in the Bible. I figured I could never be the wife and mother that God wanted me to be and was thus a lost cause in His eyes anyways. Since I saw myself this way, I figured nothing I did mattered. I should live my life as I pleased because there was no hope for me.

But on a trip back home to visit my parents last month, the routine of my old life made me realize something: in a lot of ways, I cannot not choose my heart. I cannot choose my struggles, and my chief struggle at the time was that I wanted to be faithful but was unsure if there was space for me with God. To be religious, I would be betraying my own desires. I would be quieting the doubts about God in my mind - a mind cultivated by years of intense education.

Instead of turning to any human for counsel, I instead turned to the Bible. What I found shocked and comforted me. I read the Word with new eyes. There was strong women everywhere in the Bible. What if I could be strong, intelligent, fulfilled, and enough for God? God created the world and knew it would one day look like this; it must not be broken. I must not be damned.

If any of you are where I was - lost, confused, wondering if God could love somebody like you - then this newsletter is for you. Every week I will dig into the Bible and show how it can fit a changed world. No matter who you are, you are welcome. I am on a journey back to God.

I hope you’ll join me.